SOOOOO yesterday for the first time ever Rally dog ran away got into a fight with another dog and made me want to kill him. Imagine this: me running around the neighbor hood while pushing little EZ in the stroller. The owner of the other dog joined in the fun too. I live 2 blocks from a very busy street. I was freaking out thinking this dumb dog was gonna die. She finally caught the little shit head in her garage. He was so pleased with himself. It was the kennel for the rest of the night for him. I seriously thought I was going to beat him bloody.

Today Eli had squash for the first time ever! The little oinker lovvvvved it. He cried when it was gone. Yeah Im rasing a fatty but who cares I love him, skin folds and all!

I learned that not everyone is honorable or has the correct sense of right and wrong. How does someone moral compass get so messed up? I know this seems like an obvious thing. I mean look at all the criminals out there. But Im talking about someone who knowingly agreed to something and because they changed their minds lie, cheat and scam to get out of it. Being a navy wife and an army brat honor and respect is ingrained in me. They always say it takes a special person to be in this life but I disagree. It takes a special love. I love my husband too much to let him ruin his name and career just because I miss him when he is gone. Being apart from him hurts. The hole in my chest sucks the life out of me some days. I spend hours on the couch crying and hearing his voice over the crackingly delayed phone calls makes me choke up. But regaurdless of all this agony every day Im away from him is another day closer to him coming home. I agreed to this life when I said "I do." Woman up and honor your agreement. I hope you know you have shamed yourself and your family.